They are not here now. They are in a gone-away place, the two people in the scratchy clothes the same colour as each other that is the colour called "blue" and which is the same colour as the place far away above was then but isn't now, but the gone-away place they are in is not through a trapdoor. The gone-away place is in the same place as this place because this is in the place called "outdoors" where there aren’t any trapdoors.
The place called "outdoors" is next to the thing called "shed" that has a way in and a way out called "door" but not "trapdoor" because it looks like it goes forward-and-back not up-and-down but now it is the thing called "broken", which is the thing like falling over but not moving and so it doesn't go forward-and-back anymore.
I'm-definitely-going-to-have-to-do-something-with-you.-Things-are-changing-up-there. Any-day-now-someone's-going-to-kick-the-door-in-so-be-ready-to-move-but-don't-worry.-I'll-stay-with-you.-I-promise.-Don't-worry.
The big thing that is the colour called "yellow" that was in the place far away above and that gave the heat is gone one more time and now there is not enough heat so it is like the feeling of Still-cold,-pretty-one?-I'll-get-you-another-blanket. You-need-to-stay-warm.-If-you-don't-stay-warm,-you-might-get-sick and the thing far away above is now not the colour that is called "blue" but the colour that is called "grey", which is one of the colours that is like all colours fading into each other. The other colour that is like all colours fading into each other is called "brown", which is like the colour of a bruise healing, and is the colour of the stuff underneath, which is a thing like the thing called "floor" but is full of soft bits when you put your hand in, and has things scattered all over the place on it, some of them little and some of them bigger.
The little things that are scattered around all over the place on the stuff underneath had things like faces that didn't have eyes or noses or mouths but were wide open and looked up at the thing far away above like lying on your back on the floor of the thing called "cellar" and catching a thing called "chill". The big faces on the little things all had different colours, the weird colours, the colours that have too much of the thing called "nice and bright" which is the thing that hurts the eyes when the trapdoor comes open, and the little things have just little bodies that can only be seen from the squat, but not the type of squat, but the Don't-squat-like-that,-you-little-shit!-Do-you-think-I've-got-time-to-spend-my-life-cleaning-up-after-you?-The-smell's-bad-enough-as-it-is!Now-listen-squat-down-there-you've-got-to-learn-your-lessons, got-to-learn-your-words type of squat, and from that squat, the little bodies can be see doing their own squats on the stuff underneath so that the little bodies become the colour called "brown" too and so they get trollop-dirty. The faces of the little things are the colours found in bruises when they are new and pretty before they fade when the air goes bright after the air goes dark and the thing called "new day" starts. But because the big thing that is the colour called "yellow" has gone away now, the weird colour dots are smaller. They are folding up, so they are healing.
And across the same patch of the stuff underneath, there are bigger dots in a colour called "mauve", which is the colour of the handbag.Take-it.-It's-for-you.-It's-a-present Girls-like-handbags,-don't-they?-Mauve's-a-pretty-colour-as-well.-Real-leather.-Not-plastic.-Look-inside.-What's-inside?And as well as bigger, these dots are taller, on spindly filly-leg-things that are the colour called "green" that do a wave in the thing that feels the same as the thing called "air" but is moving so is different but doesn't have its own name. The big dots are like they're too heavy for the filly-spindle legs that almost can't stand up and if they bend down to the stuff underneath they’ll get trollop-dirty too. The big dots are like the pictures round the edges of the mirror that lives in the handbag with the scent and the lipstick and the broken piece of peacock feather.
They're-pretty-aren't-they? They're-called-flowers. One-day-you'll-see-real-flowers-and then-you'll-thank-me.
The air moves one more time and the big dots shake because they're the thing called You’re-a-weird-kid. You’re-not-quite-right-in-the-head,-that’s-your-trouble! and they want to shake the "not quite right" out and shake the "right" in, but one of them has less of the colour called "mauve" than the others and lots of bits of the colour called "brown" and it shouldn't have but it has to get better on its own because there's nobody else who can help it.
Next to the thing called "shed" is the big fat thing that is empty inside of solid stuff but full of the wet stuff and has no separate legs but just one round fat leg that is the colour called "black" which is like the colour of the picture of the eye in the mirror that lives in the handbag with the scent and the lipstick and the broken piece of peacock feather and the body of the big fat thing is the colour called "green" too just like the tall thing that is like a wall but not like a wall because it moves in the air so there are lots of things that are the colour that is called "green" but not "green finch" because they don't eat so it isn't the same sort of thing as Do-you-have-to-be-such-a-messy-eater?-You're-just-like-a-fucking-greenfinch,-chucking-your-food-all-over-the-place!-I'm-not-made-of-money,-you-know! Well-you're-not-having-any-more-today! Give-me-that-knife-back! and the big fat thing is made of the thing the knife-handle is made of, which is called "plastic", which is not the thing the handbag is made of.
The thing like a wall but not like a wall has got a thing in the middle of it and the thing is much more tall and has a skin that is shiny and silver and it makes a creaking noise like an old body.The tall thing would be too tall for the cellar and would be the thing called If-I-bang-my-head-on-that-ceiling-one-more-time,-I'll-swing-for-you,-God-help-me.The tall thing has lots of arms sticking out of its silver skin that don't move and look like they are hard, just like things made out of wood are hard but all the arms have small hands all along them, which are the colour called "green" too and they are waving as the air moves and they are dripping stuff like the stickiness from a dripping nose down to the stuff underneath. But they don't drip because It’s-only-a-cold.-Don’t-fret,-filly-don't-worry-you'll-get-better but because dripping is the thing that they want to do.
And a small thing is on one of the arms in the middle of the waving hands and the small thing moves down through the air without falling and it stands on the stuff underneath and it has long soft things with spots on stuck into its body like somebody has taken lots of broken pieces of peacock feather like the one that lives in the handbag with the mirror and the scent and the lipstick and stuck them into its body and it has not minded the pain but the long soft things are mostly not the weird colours except some are the colour called "red" but most are the colour called "brown" and the small thing has a stripe next to its eye like the stripe made by the lipstick that lives in the handbag with the mirror and the scent and the broken piece of peacock feather when it's done properly and not when You're-so-pretty.-Don't-worry,-things-heal.-You're-young.-Put-some-lipstick-on.-You're-far-too-young,-but-it-will-make-you-look-better.-Take-it-out-of-your-handbag. -Turn-it-so-it-pushes-out.-Put-it-on.-No,-not-like-that!-On-your-lips.-Like-this.Look-in-your-pretty-mirror. That's-better.-That's-a-nice-colour and the small thing has a big knife-handle nose and feet made of the thing called "gristle" which are the bits of food you can't eat even though you're growing and you need your food. The small thing sticks the knife-handle nose into the stuff underneath and moves its head from side to side like someone walking with a bad leg and drags out a long thin thing like something to eat but not really like something to eat because it's moving, moving from side to side just like the legs move when they do the walk down the ladder from the trapdoor that is Do-you-think-it's-easy,-getting-through-here-in-my-condition?-The-things-I-do-for-you.-But-you're-never-grateful and the small thing has to do the walk like Can't-you-walk-straight? Don't-stagger-around-like-that! Are-you-crazy? And then it is still. And the air moves one more time and it's the thing called noise, and it's like the thing called "shout" and the small thing moves back up onto one of the silver-covered arms and it goes into the waving hands and is not seen one more time.
And now wet-stuff is coming down from the place far away above and the stuff underneath is still the colour called "brown" but has gone darker, but the wet stuff doesn't stop when you want it to. It's not like the thing called washing. Come-on,-you've-got-to-wash-yourself;-stay-clean.-If-you-don't-wash-yourself,-I'll-do-it-for-you.-Dirty-little-trollop! The wet stuff falls into something else that is wet, like the washing bowl only big, something with pictures of other things in it that are not quite right because they are the wrong way round just like the picture in the mirror of the broken piece of peacock feather and the wet stuff falling makes the wet stuff underneath go into little bits of roughness and so the pictures that are the wrong way round can't be seen properly because they go the thing called "messy", which is just like the thing called Put-your-stuff-away.-How-many-times-do-I-need-to-tell-you?-Keep-the-place-tidy,-for-fuck's-sake! Stop-scattering-things-around-all-over-the-place!
And now the wet stuff coming down has stopped and the place far away above is the colour called “blue” one more time, and the big thing that is the colour called "yellow" has come back one more time from behind all the colours faded into each other and it is too bright one more time and the little things that are scattered around all over the place on the stuff underneath have stopped healing and are all open one more time like the thing above has hit them with its heat but the heat is not enough because the big thing that is the colour called "yellow" is still too far away.
And now the two people in the scratchy clothes the colour called “blue” are here one more time from the gone-away place and they come close and they both do the arms-wrap-around-body thing so that everything goes the colour of their clothes, which is the colour called "blue" and then everything goes the thing called "dark" and the thing called "warm" for a short time but the arms-wrap-around-body thing they do is soft and so the arms-wrap-around-body thing they do is different. This may be the thing that is called "a hug".
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